Unwrapping The Moment

I sat down in the chair and kicked off my sandals to get comfortable. I was just given a lovely tour of the office where I got to experience the gift of someone making their business filled with love in every corner. The colors were warm, the energy was light, the welcome was unmatched. It was one of those sought-after moments where I could actually feel the shift happen in my body in real time. As I was getting cozy in the chair, I took a deep breath and looked around. The beauty of the office and the appealing aesthetics were somewhat picturesque. Something you only hope medical professional offices achieve but most fall short leaving us feeling anxious in a new, cold environment just hoping we will get the help we desperately need. The doctor walked in and we exchanged pleasantries with an immediate connection. I felt my body, again, take a sigh of relief with a jolting feeling of being exactly where I was meant to be. We carried on with casual conversation about my health history and my goals for beginning these appointments. Once the new energetic dust settled, I asked her, "how do you know when you're not numb anymore?", to which she replied, "well when was the last time you felt joy?".

As I begin, yet again, another spiritual awakening on this journey back to Self, I am humbled with the intellect and wisdom of the body. We so often get caught up in thinking too much and not feeling enough. Our bodies hold the memories and our symptoms are the answers. Every headache, every stomach pain, every missed period, is the most raw form our bodies communicate with us. As I sit in the grass watching the kids play, I am reminded that if I had the choice to do this life all over again with the same health conditions, I would in a heartbeat. To feel the immense grief and anxiety that resides in my body accompanied by breathtaking joy and beauty is a gentle yet abrasive reminder that I am Alive.

Healing the physical body takes courage. It takes patience. It takes understanding. Any health condition is a call to a personal evolution. It is a declaration of a road less traveled. Our emotions are the vibrant hues that color our lives, each one adding depth and richness to our unique existence. They are here to tell a story and release energy. To feel, is to embrace the full spectrum of the human experience. Whether fleeting or lingering, each emotion connects us to a story or memory we so desperately hold on to. In the calm quiet of the chaos, are the moments of self-reflection that allow us to fully meet ourselves where we are at. On my journey back to Self through my physical health and constant surrender, I will leave you with this...

when was the last time you felt joy? that, my love, is the key to your healing.